i broke my promise.
here i am blogging again.
only after a few days):

school has started for a few days already and i feel really strange, like lost perhaps? even though school ends early everyday, i will just return home and take super long afternoon naps and then go back to sleep at 11 plus. i saw an article on the newspaper about people who like to sleep alot. it seems as though sleeping is a way to escape from something.... do i need to escape from sth? or maybe is there sth tt i want to avoid? perhaps... i am not really sure of my emotions right now since it is really mixed up and stuff. it just feels as though my whole life is being messed up. maybe a few bottles of vodka will do. hah. i am just kidding. being drunk doesnt help at all cos there will be more things awaiting for you when u regain consciousness. temporary liberation isnt the right solution. it is futile. waste of time.

i just came home from tuition. i was totally zonked out during the whole tuition. today's session was completely useful to me>.< haiz. nothing went in. and i finally realised how good my english is. i wonder how am i going to improve it within the remaining months left. seriously.

i walked around blindly in the dark, unsure of my directions and worried about getting hurt.
who is going to be there for me? to hold on to me when i cant see a thing without lights?
Will you stay by my side and be my guiding star?

if only i am willing to eat carrots>.< haiz.

bad day.
i wish for a better tomorrow!
good night(: