today is the 5th day at camp (also my last day)
thanks fiona and xu lie for specially coming to sch just to help me with the dance(:
i hope i can do it well on the performance day(:

we had tech run for the first time and i thought it was quite good cos i was really touched by the plot, despite some problems with coordination... i am sorry if i malu-ed myself when subbing as one of the main lead cos i have never acted before other than my drama lessons in primary school!! anw.. GROUP G you all really have to buck up. ur attitudes really have to be changed. just do ur best and be aware that actually a lot is expected from u all as the host school. jiayou!!

anw. today was a damn emo day for me.
i hate walking alone cos i will think about alot of stuff.
i break camp earlier than my other fellow facils cos i had to get my performance shirt from charmaine...
it hadnt struck me tt i wasnt even attending tml's camp during the debrief.
i forgot tt i am leaving in 2 days..
it caught me unprepared.
saying good-byes to e other facils and GROUP 7 was really very hard.
i wonder when is the next time tt i will see ppl from GRP 7 again..
probably never.
i wonder when my goldfish memory will forget about their faces and names...
i wonder....
though didnt spend alot of time when my group... there was just this weird connection..
i really dint know that i was such a sentimental person before this..
hope to see them in huang cheng ye yun next year!(:
bet i will miss each and everyone of them...
the other facils...
it's just goodnight and not goodbye...
although i will get to see them when i come back but still...
i felt super emotional...
especially when they all said bye to me):
really... i couldnt take it anymore...

i walked down the road towards the gate with everything in front of me all too blur.
looks like i got to eat more carrots which i totally hate...
anw. the road was so dark and empty.
i was the only one there.
left alone and standing out of nowhere.
its just the sense of helplessness and sadness that overwhelmed me..
while i was waiting for a cab...
all the vehicles that were on the road went past me...
none tt was stopping for me):
i looked back at the clock tower and i was thinking if all my friends are still there...
i was wondering how it will be if i am still there with them...
prob laughing about very very minor stuff and going crazy over things that never makes any sense..
now, i regret choosing to go taiwan..

i am overwhelmed with anxiety,fear, helplessness and everything else...
my first time on an aeroplane...
first time travelling alone without my parents
first time visiting a country that isnt malaysia...
it seems like time pass too fast and i cant adapt fast enough...
i am scared to be more exact):

now its just one more day.. AND I HAVENT PACKED MY BAG!
AND I WANNA WATCH YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!
butterflies and caterpillars ane everything else are going wild in my stomach! geez

well
ciao
will post tml before my flight
nights(:

GROUP G de PPL!!!
must take care kies?
drink lots of water and sleep well.
just relax and do ur best tml!!!