i realise tt i haven been blogging ever since i went jiu fen.
its really a very scenic place and the place tt we stayed in can be compared to the quality of the hotel. i saw too many things there. like the funny scenes of people who are really drunk and have no idea what they are doing and still insist tt they are awake?? lolx.
i m reminding myself not to get addicted to alcohol. cos everything is going to return to normal when i go back to singapore. no alcohol and no weird people.
people really start to act weirdly when they are drunk and come to think of it.... the things tt happened were a little weird.. even ppl who werent drunk acted strangely....
but the place was really fun apart from the never ending flight of stairs to the shops, everything else was fun. we even went shi fen to release some tian deng. hope tt all our wishes will come true as our tian deng reaches the heaven.
lolx. our room was eventually messed up and corrupted despite me insisting tt it is going to be a pure and innocent one cos every other room had ppl who are like drunk.
today is already wednesday and i m leaving my homestay on sat morn and its gonna be a really sad thing cos i will miss my buddy and her family):
man. today was a really sad day cos char's buddy's mum actually asked her if her fren (which is me) is a guy anot. i mean come on.. i know i have the built of an average guy... prob a little shorter and fatter... but still.... tts a very sad thing to be said tt i m a guy.... i have been looking at ppl and wondering if they are guy/girl but i never knew tt similar things would occur to me. sad. i really look like a guy??? maybe. though i may not be pretty, may not be feminine, still... geez.
prob i shld consider cross dressing ah??
today i heard the story of an epic *****. it will seriously hurt one's ears when listening to the stories of her. seriously. dun make me vomit.
aiyo.
i need to go alr.
update soon i hope.
byes
(:

day 5.
today was the most malu day ever.
i think i left my brain in singapore.
i totally didnt realise tt my skirt was hiked up andmy leggings at the thigh part was totally exposed. super obscene!! anw.
i keep forgetting stuff today. like where i placed my camera, phone,specs etc etc.
sianz
had some design and technology lesson and i lost the product tt i did): super sad. i actually forgot to bring it back aft the lesson. i knew i forgot to bring sth when i was going out of the class but i couldnt figure out what it was. geez. i knew tt this was coming.
anw. today minglun people arranged to go hot spring but i couldnt go cos my buddy's grandma had a birthday celebration at a restaurant.the food was delicious but i think i m going to need to go on a diet when i return to singapore. too much food(calories) intake.
and i realise that my english is becoming more and more powderful..):
my sentence structure and everything are going hay-wired and and .... i HAVE SAT IN JANUARY. bless me! *sigh*
kay kay.
i m ending here.
hahz.
taiwan beer somehow taste and smell nicer than singapore's! lolx.
nites(:

ello.
day 4 in taiwan.
wells.
today is just school and we went gong guan.
school was a bit funny cos i totally look like a taiwanese and even the form teacher of my buddy thought that i was in the class>.anw.
i realise sth today.
i pity myself.
i m surrounded by lots of acquaintances in my life but yet i wonder who is my confidant and true friend??
i wanna change the way i look like with a complete makeover or sth from head to toe.
perhaps.
sian.
now i m feeling abit homesick alr.
abit tired and bored.
maybe i will aster the art of stoning by the time i am back in singapore.lolx.

kays
nites
(:

Tuesday, December 1, 2009 @ 6:11 AM

HELLO!!!
i am currently still in taiwan day 3(:
ytd was a fab day cos we went ximending aft sch!!!
damn cool
finally went there after seeing so much of it on tv shows!!!
i bought a new converse shoes which i thought was quite cheap and i desparately needed a pair of new shoes..(:
my leg is only one word--- screwed.
i went to see doc today and missing out on the welcome dinner but lucky i went to see him today cos he said that my ankle is a little dislocated): stupid heels. seriously. i dun wanna see it ever again aft so many blisters and a dislocated ankle!
my foot is currently equivalent to the size of a trotter. no joke.
and and... i couldnt dance. i mean i dunnoe what the others will think of it as but i did not purposely injure myself so that i can dun dance. fyi, i even bought the cap and was practising the dance this morn despite my very screwed leg. what makes u think that i purposely not want to dance? seriously. i really swear tt i want to dance or else all the time spent on it will be totally wasted... boo):
want to take lots of photos!! (:
waiting for tml to come
i am wondering when i will actually start doing my work??prob not now. haha
I AM SO PROUD OF HWACHONG!haha. somebody actually recognise us as ppl from hwachong when we were wearing our blazers at ximending. cool. though tt might be a singaporean but still its good to be recognised overseas.haha(:
still waiting for the rest of the days to come.
ZZZZ....
a few more days then i will be on the plane on my way back to singapore....
prob not looking forward to tt day):

Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 7:02 AM

i just reached my buddy's house in taoyuan
now everything to me seems to be like a dream...
i just somehow reached taiwan...
haha
actually the plane flight wasnt tt bad afterall(:
i didnt really experience any ear block or whatever
and and i m really looking forward to my next airplane journey which is probably departure from taiwan(:
the air stewardess resembles the one in phobia....
quite scary!!!!
but i think its so cool and fun to be air stewardess!!!
lolx
my future ambition((:
kidding
anw
i shall end up...
ohoh
and and i just want to shilin!!!! (:
ciao
(:
till next time?

Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 7:51 AM

today is the 5th day at camp (also my last day)
thanks fiona and xu lie for specially coming to sch just to help me with the dance(:
i hope i can do it well on the performance day(:

we had tech run for the first time and i thought it was quite good cos i was really touched by the plot, despite some problems with coordination... i am sorry if i malu-ed myself when subbing as one of the main lead cos i have never acted before other than my drama lessons in primary school!! anw.. GROUP G you all really have to buck up. ur attitudes really have to be changed. just do ur best and be aware that actually a lot is expected from u all as the host school. jiayou!!

anw. today was a damn emo day for me.
i hate walking alone cos i will think about alot of stuff.
i break camp earlier than my other fellow facils cos i had to get my performance shirt from charmaine...
it hadnt struck me tt i wasnt even attending tml's camp during the debrief.
i forgot tt i am leaving in 2 days..
it caught me unprepared.
saying good-byes to e other facils and GROUP 7 was really very hard.
i wonder when is the next time tt i will see ppl from GRP 7 again..
probably never.
i wonder when my goldfish memory will forget about their faces and names...
i wonder....
though didnt spend alot of time when my group... there was just this weird connection..
i really dint know that i was such a sentimental person before this..
hope to see them in huang cheng ye yun next year!(:
bet i will miss each and everyone of them...
the other facils...
it's just goodnight and not goodbye...
although i will get to see them when i come back but still...
i felt super emotional...
especially when they all said bye to me):
really... i couldnt take it anymore...

i walked down the road towards the gate with everything in front of me all too blur.
looks like i got to eat more carrots which i totally hate...
anw. the road was so dark and empty.
i was the only one there.
left alone and standing out of nowhere.
its just the sense of helplessness and sadness that overwhelmed me..
while i was waiting for a cab...
all the vehicles that were on the road went past me...
none tt was stopping for me):
i looked back at the clock tower and i was thinking if all my friends are still there...
i was wondering how it will be if i am still there with them...
prob laughing about very very minor stuff and going crazy over things that never makes any sense..
now, i regret choosing to go taiwan..

i am overwhelmed with anxiety,fear, helplessness and everything else...
my first time on an aeroplane...
first time travelling alone without my parents
first time visiting a country that isnt malaysia...
it seems like time pass too fast and i cant adapt fast enough...
i am scared to be more exact):

now its just one more day.. AND I HAVENT PACKED MY BAG!
AND I WANNA WATCH YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!
butterflies and caterpillars ane everything else are going wild in my stomach! geez

well
ciao
will post tml before my flight
nights(:

GROUP G de PPL!!!
must take care kies?
drink lots of water and sleep well.
just relax and do ur best tml!!!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 7:32 AM

today is a really really really BAD DAY.
hate it.
I HATE MYSELF.
damn.
god.
there's no way i can practise my dance when i reach home at 11 plus...
oh man.
WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO?
i seriously think that perhaps... i mean perhaps i made the wrong decisions):

too many things happened.
things changed and perceptions can be changed easily.
i wanna look at the brighter side...
regain my optimism..
be cheerful again
AND NOT ONLY BE HIGH WHEN I M SUPPOSED TO OR WORSE WHEN I AM TIRED

but i really liked to hang out with the huang cheng ppl!!!!
(:
haha.
the multi-languages....
hah.
i need to brush up on my canto and jap and hakka and korean and everything else(:

处于一个身不由己的处境。。。
放手。。。
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